hello

Lonely boring morning. I guess my life is back to normal now. Waking up feeling like the world is crashing into me and not doing anything about it. Phone's not blinking. Life's just like the machine you see in the ICU going flat with that beep tune to go along with.

But then again wasn't my life like that all along what's a little displacement from the norm gonna affect.

Nothing. Like if you stand in front of a bulldozer to stop it from bulldozing whatever you are protecting. Ask yourself would it hurt the bulldozer if it goes over you? No. So why stand in front of it.

This song keeps coming up on random, Monster in Disguise By Audio Karate.
"...
this soul has many voids throughtout me
i have fallen deep inside, i will never find the right way
and im sick of living life through weakness
i would rather slip and die than live this life without you."

Anyway i forgot to call rachel, by the time i remembered it like 8pm she's probably asleep. I so fucking busy everyday i get home in the evening. Like tomorrow i've got church and that takes up the morning, then i got tuition maths and chemistry and that takes up the afternoon til evening. Then i got dinner which takes up a lot of time also. I've also got lots of stuff unfinished like studying, rachel's card, a new page layout and my new room interior layout.

I hope i don't have to feel this song Do You Miss Being Everything to Me by Audio Karate.